2013年12月31日 星期二

The End of 2013

Today is the end of 2013, everyone is countdown at somewhere, and however I am at home. This is not because of no one invite me (although this is one of the factors); instead this is because I have no mood to countdown as all people celebrating now. Additionally, I just get the new job, position is audit junior executive. Initially I expected that I am very lower chance to get this job as they want person that spoke or writes English very well, and I know the level of my English language still got a huge room to improve, but I still going to meet the appointment, my first ever interview.

As a result, they are hiring me, this is really unexpected, I am feeling flying during that moment. Because the whole interview session I am not doing well, as my English language are very weak, and some question that they asked, I am not answered well, some even stop a while and answered, thus this is very worse. However the interviewer named Patrick are very nice person, he is very patient that listening every single words that I said, and look through all my work like my assignment, my resume etc., thus I feel very appreciate, appreciate they give an opportunity for interview and at last I am hired~!!  

2013年11月15日 星期五

Mariah Carey - The Art Of Letting Go

Epic Flawless Perfect !!! Love it !!!
I'm making a statement of my own opinion
Just a brief little reminder to help myself remember
I no longer live in your dominion (no, no, no, ooh)
You're just trifling, nothing more than a liability
Gotta lay all your possessions
Outside the kitchen window right now

Letting go, letting go ain't easy
Oh, it's just exceedingly hurtful
'Cause somebody you used to know
It's flinging your world around
And they watch, as you're falling down, down, down
Falling down, baby

Evidently your words were merely lies
Reverberating in my ears
And the echo won't subside
There's a deep deep loss of hope
And the anger burns in me
I hope you don't get no ideas 'bout re-uniting baby
'Cause that's the last thing I truly need
Your audacity is too much to be believed, so
Go to MiMi on your contacts, press delete


Letting go ain't easy
Oh, it's just exceedingly hurtful
'Cause somebody you used to know
Is flinging your world around
And they watch, as you're falling down, down
Down, down

Baby letting go, baby letting go
Ain't easy, easy
Baby letting go, baby letting go 
Ain't easy
Ain't easy

Baby letting go, it ain't easy
'Cause somebody you used to know
It's flinging your world around
And you know what?
They watch as you're falling, as you're falling
Down
Fall
It ain't easy baby 

2013年9月10日 星期二

失去所有意义,仿佛为了活着而生活,
过着倒带般的生活,
生不如死。
难道要忘记或完全不在乎一个人是真的那么难吗?
对,很难。

2013年8月31日 星期六

Can't Let Go by Mariah Carey

I know I'm defeated by something again that I can't let go...
There you are
Holding her hand
I am lost
Dying to understand
Didn't I
Cherish you right
Don't you know
You were my life

[Chorus:]
Even though I try
I can't let go
Something in your eyes
Captured my soul
And every night
I see you in my dreams
You're all I know
I can't let go

Just cast aside
You don't even know I'm alive
You just walk on by
Don't care to see me cry
And here I am
Still holding on
I can't accept
My world is gone

[Chorus]

Do you even realize
The sorrow I have inside
Everyday of my life
Do you know the way it feels
When all you have just dies
I try and try
To deny that I need you
But still you remain on my mind

[Chorus]

No I just can't get you out of my mind
I never can say goodbye
'Cause every night
I see you in my dreams
You're all I know
I can't let you go
Even though I try
I can't let go of something that I need so badly
You're all I know
I can't let go


2013年8月19日 星期一

What am I doing in this two weeks?

During the semester break, I went to Peneng..
Then I discover something, my hobbies haha, is painting~!!
I bought it from Auto City (as show as below):
This cost me RM65, however since I buying two of them, so boss
decided to make a discount for me, two of them is RM120, another one will
show later hehe...while I complete. 
I almost used 2 weeks to complete it haha, now is done, 
the process and the things inside will show as below:
This is provided color
this is guideline for me 
This is first step

10 color completed
16 color completed

last color left (almost done hehe)

all color completed, however one more step to go which it more shining hehe

All done haha
however, actually I'm not very satisfied what i have done, I will improve it next painting :) 


2013年8月9日 星期五


我曾经一厢情愿的把自己当成了你的贵人,可惜到头来,原来我只是你生命中的过客。

到了下一站我就要下车了,而您也认识了另一个过客,所以,

曾经最好的朋友,祝您一路顺风。

毕业后,一切顺利。

我知道,我应该必须完完全全消失在你的朋友圈里。

或许早已消失,但也好,现在离开也不迟。

谢谢您曾经带给我的一切欢乐,这些年有您真的很开心。

希望在未知的未来里,你会轻轻的想起我们曾经的时光。

而我希望把和你最好的记忆都留在心中,得空拿出来一下,随着你我一起听过的歌曲,重新
的在脑海里演择一番。

祝福,安康,永远快乐,

还有永别了。

2013年8月6日 星期二

End of My First Semester in Year 3

*Sorry for my grammar, now I try to improve my grammar through writing English language blog.
Oh~!!, this semester was horrible because I covered 4 subjects in this semester which are corporate governance, management decision making, and strategic management accounting and performance management.

During this period, I almost go through all by myself, without any help by any friends, I even don’t feel I have friends in this semester, because every day I went to college was alone, walked alone, ate alone, and do assignment alone, everything is alone.

Meanwhile, the challenge of this semester was, I joined top student’s group to do a group assignment. This was very stress while grouped with them, therefore I stress myself to do work well, fortunately I had meet their expectation HaHa..

Moreover, since I know year 3 are very important for my future career, I force myself to put high effort on it, and I force myself to done all the assignment before 2 weeks prior to the due date except group assignment. There are totally 2 presentations, 6 individual assignments and 2 group assignments.

Corporate governance had 2 assignments, this subject’s assignment was the most troublesome among others subject’s assignment as the lecturers have put too much condition on it and change it frequently  such as the guideline he gave is like this and like that in the first day, however we ask him again in another day, the guideline is not as same as he gave in the first day as well, it make us very confused and I need to “correct” my assignment in order to “fits” his guideline very often since I already done the assignment before he gave us assignment guideline “again”. Furthermore, the due date also delay again and again as the lecturer change the condition again and again, I was like “@##@@!@@!#Q!E~~!!”

Except the corporate governance, others were smooth. However one more things are presentations, and I have 2 presentations in this semester. I hate presentations, some more there are 2 presentations waiting for me, I was like “@#^&^%$$~!!” again.

Haha finally final exam, previously I have Kah Mun and Kian Khai accompany me together prepare for final exam, however this semester I only have Chloe accompany me together prepare the final exam, cause Kian Khai was graduated (hehe congratulation Kian Khai) and Kah Mun only take one subject which is strategic cost management, we are not same subject so very reasonable that he didn’t find me study together. Actually study with Chloe was unexpected, because I expected I will study alone in this semester.

This final exam, what I most worry is corporate governance and strategic management accounting maybe fail because I had not confidence with it. Firstly corporate governance is a full theory based subject, like company law given a case study and using corporate governance knowledge to apply it and that lecturer is new, thus his style of revision was like start from very beginning’s lectures till last lectures, the different is he used only 2 days to complete the revision, so conclusion is no revision (=.=”). I am very weak in memorized theory and I need took much time to memorized it (cause I need understand it only memorized). While during the exam, I doubt my answers is it meet the questions needs although the exam came out what I memorizes my self-prepared note (luckily). Meanwhile I skip one question which is 10 marks only implied that I have only 90 marks can earn, now still afraid this subject will fail.

Then the strategic management accounting lecturer tell us that the final exam is covered 5 topic which are target costing, life cycle costing, value chain analysis, activities based costing,  segment analysis and balanced scorecard with 75% theory and 25% calculation. Actually there are 85% theory and 15% calculation cause only one calculation question with 15 marks only which is under segment analysis. What I scare about it is of course firstly this is also have many theory need to memorized and those theory are not very easy to understand and all of these theory like definition, purpose, process, pros and cons are almost the same, it was confused me especially target costing, life cycle costing and value chain analysis, I was like “who the hell create these things %$#^!@~~??”. Unfortunately, during exam I really intermingle that three methods, even though each of them are 10 marks, but as a whole, these three methods covered 30 marks, IT'S KILLING ME~!!!!!

Sign*, I should feel happy because another 2 subject maybe I can score A, these subject are performance management and management decision making.
Hmm, hopes I can pass all of these subject lah hehe…

Nothing to say already..

2013年8月4日 星期日

我是巨蟹座

巨蟹座很傻很天真,他們有著超強的等待能力。會小心翼翼的保留著每一件你送的禮物;收到的每條資訊;記得你的每一個習慣;回憶對癡情的蟹們來說是等待的動力。然而當有一天,蟹把珍藏的禮物資訊和回憶,一切通通丟棄刪除忘記的時候,也就是蟹決定不再等待的時候,默默離開也絕不回頭

巨蟹座一生都在尋找和等待一個懂自己的人。當被人誤解、被人呵斥,蟹蟹只雙眼噙滿淚水或保持沉默,不願意解釋。因為蟹蟹一直相信如果你愛我,那必須懂我。所以蟹蟹在一些人眼裡會顯得有點兒敏感,有點多愁善感。很多時候蟹蟹很想有個依靠,去理解蟹蟹,去對蟹蟹說:我懂你

2013年7月22日 星期一

我是巨蟹座

當巨蟹座狠下心去離開一個人時,他不會去解釋為什麼。因為他的理由太深太遠,他不懂該從何說起。所以他寧願選擇不說,默默地離開。別人就會覺得巨蟹很狠心,冷血。可是我相信,每個巨蟹在狠下心前都有給過很多次的機會,再多的罪惡他都一一包容。你不能怪他在他爆發時把所有的舊藏都算在裡面。他包容得太多,心軟得太凶了。你學不會珍惜,沒資格說巨蟹冷血。要他解釋離開你的理由,得說個三五天。你得慶倖他默默地離開,而沒將你的罪孽公佈天下。

2013年7月19日 星期五

Imperfect by Mariah Carey

When I think about everything wrong, I remember how amazing
life truly is and the fact that I like being imperfect..
Imperfect
I saw you yesterday
And I heard what you had to say
All those ugly ways you think about me
But I know it's ok
Gonna keep the smile on my face
Hate don't change the way I feel about
My inner being

Cause I won't let them dim my light
And I'm holding my head up high
And I know my exterior is not impeccable to you
I don't know if my wrongs is right
But I'm gonna keep livin my life
Defame my name that I made and they
Don't care what they say about me

Imperfect
That's all that I'll ever be
And God knows that's alright with me
Cause I know there's no one greater and everybody's
Imperfect
When you're tryin to live in harmony
But the song of life is out of key
Just be perfectly imperfect

As I look at the tv screen
In there and in magazines
So much insecurity surrounds me
Wish I could change the page
Got to stay with my self-esteem
Folks so superficial
Makes it hard to just survive

Cause I won't let them dim my light
And I'm holding my head up high
And I know my exterior is not impeccable to you
I don't know if my wrongs is right
But I'm gonna keep livin my life
Defame my name that I made and they
Don't care what they say about me

Imperfect
That's all that I'll ever be
And God knows that's alright with me
Cause I know there's no one greater and everybody's
Imperfect
When you're tryin to live in harmony
But the song of life is out of key
Just be perfectly imperfect

I may not walk like a supermodel
All look as flawless as they do
I don't know where you get off judgin
Cause I'm imperfect just like you
So I don't care about your status
No I swear up to here I've had it
Ain't try to win no beauty pageant
Cause in my heart is all that matters


Imperfect
That's all that I'll ever be
And God knows that's alright with me
Cause I know there's no one

greater and everybody's
Imperfect
When you're tryin to live in harmony
But the song of life is out of key
Just be perfectly imperfect

Imperfect
That's all that I'll ever be
And God knows that's alright with me
Cause I know there's no one greater and everybody's
Imperfect

When you're tryin to live in harmony
But the song of life is out of key
Just be perfectly imperfect
Imperfect, imperfect, imperfect, imperfect

2013年7月6日 星期六

祝我生日快乐 ~温岚

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么~让我诚实一点
诚实~难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门 不必理谁
一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机~让它休息一夜
难~想切歌 切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐~
我对自己说
蜡烛点了 寂寞亮了
生日快乐 泪也溶了
我要谢谢 你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你~带一点恨
还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 画面重生
祝我生日~快乐

2013年6月8日 星期六

Crazy by Cee Lo Green

I remember when, I remember
I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space

And when you're out there without care
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly

And I hope that you are
Having the time of your life
But think twice
That's my only advice

Come on now, who do you
Who do you, who do you, who do you think you are?
)
Ha ha ha, bless your soul
You really think you're in control?

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart
To lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember
Is thinking, I want to be like them

Ever since I was little
Ever since I was little
It looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

But maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably

2013年6月3日 星期一

儿童不宜

汤姆在睡觉前总要听爸爸的故事才睡得着.....

爸爸:“在以前,有一只青蛙......”

汤姆:“爸,今天我不想听童话故事,可以讲科幻故事?”

爸爸:“好,在太空,有一只青蛙......”

汤姆:“算了,爸,为了庆祝我8岁生日,可以讲限制级的吗?”

爸爸:“好吧!可别让你妈知道。有一只没穿衣服的青蛙......”

2013年5月2日 星期四

Why such a thing would happen to me

Today, I feels that I lost something..
something very important to me..
Is a person, being friend almost 3 years..
even thought it's only 3 years, but it is very long times,
long enough to make me feels can't let go...
but I have to let go, in fact, he gone far far away already..
I don't know why I feels like this...
but I have to face it since in the future we didn't meet each other much, unless got somethings happen..
since he make me feels that I bothering him, I know it;s time to face it..
I do really hopes that our relationship will be like before..
.
.
.
.
.
but I know it's impossible..
but I still classify him as my close friend.....
.
.
Why such a thing would happen to me
.
.
.
I really cherish him...
..
.
but why..
...
I still can't let go..
.
.
.
.

【三個小故事告訴你,世界上總有"無價"的東西】


我認識一位醫生每到冬天,他就在口袋裡放一個暖暖包,使自己的手始終保持熱乎乎的,並不是他格外地怕冷,而是他要確保每一個到他這裡來看病的人,遇到的都是一雙溫暖的手。

他說,用溫暖的手給病人看病,可以讓病人感到安心、信賴,可以激發病人治癒疾病的信心。




我聽說過一位農婦,她的家住在路邊,在一個災荒年,不少人因為缺少食物而四處流浪。

一天,一位衣裳襤褸、非常飢餓的流浪漢走進農婦家,請求讓他幹一份活來換一頓飯吃。

農婦看了看他又看了老院子裡的那堆木柴說:「正好那邊有一堆木柴攔路,請幫我移一下」。

當流浪漢把那堆木柴移好時,農婦已經把香味十足的飯菜準備好了。

但那流浪漢並不知道,在那個貧寒的季節裡,那堆木柴已經被移來移去移了好多次了。



我還知道一位擦鞋童他最喜歡聽一位著名的小提琴家的琴聲。

當這位小提琴家來到擦鞋童所在城市裡來演出時,這位擦鞋童想設法湊錢買了一張最便宜的票。

小提琴家知道了這件事,演出結束後,就找到這位擦鞋童,問擦鞋童需要什麼幫助?

擦鞋童回答說:「我只想聽聽您的琴聲」小提琴家感動之餘,將心愛的小提琴贈送給了這位小知音。

30年後,小提琴家再次來到這座城市演出,設法找到了當年的擦鞋童。在貧困的日子,有許多人出高價要買他的小提琴,都被他拒絕了;小提琴家再次問他需要什麼幫助?

他的回答依然和30年前一樣:「我只想聽聽您的琴聲。」



我很清楚,醫生的診費是有價的,農婦做的飯菜是有價的,小提琴是有價的。

但我更清楚,醫生那雙手上的溫暖是無價的,農婦融在飯菜裡的仁慈是無價的,擦鞋童對琴聲的癡愛是無價的。

我還清楚,娛樂是有價的,但幸福是無價的;禮品是有價的,但健康是無價的;禮物是有價的,但情誼是無價的;房子是有價的,但家是無價的;財富是有價的,但愛是無價的。

只要我們心存一份對生活永遠不變的熱情,這世間,總有一些東西是無價的。

「這個世上有很多人需要被幫助,需要更好的平台來關注這些人,讓他們得到金援,我們正在努力的使這個願望實現。」


From Internet..

2013年4月15日 星期一

Like You Never See Me Again by Alicia Keys


If I had no more time 
No more time left to be here 
Would you cherish what we had' 
Was it everything that you were looking for? 
If I couldn't feel your touch 
And no longer were you with me 
I'd be wishing you were here 
To be everything that I'd be looking for 
I don't wanna forget the present is a gift 
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me 
Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed 

So every time you hold me 

Hold me like this is the last time 
Every time you kiss me 
Kiss me like you'll never see me again 
Every time you touch me 
Touch me like this is the last time 
Promise that you'll love me 
Love me like you'll never see me again 

Oh oh oh


How many really know what love is' 

Millions never will 
Do you know until you lose it 

That it's everything that we are looking for 

When I wake up in the morning 
You're beside me 
I'm so thankful that I found 
Everything that I been looking for 

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift 

And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me 
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed 

So every time you hold me 

Hold me like this is the last time 
Every time you kiss me 
Kiss me like you'll never see me again 
(can you do that for me baby) 
Every time you touch me 
(see we don't really know) 
Touch me like this is the last time 
(see everyday we never know) 
Promise that you'll love me 
(I want you to promise me) 
Love me like you'll never see me again 
(like you'll never see me again) 

Oh oh oh oh oh

2013年4月9日 星期二

Today is second day of this semester,
Haha nothing special,
as my expectation,
always alone,
lunch alone, sit alone, study alone, walk alone,
just cicak with those not close enough's friends,
then back home alone.

Haha, but I feel happy, but not really happy...

2013年3月17日 星期日

我珍惜, 可没人珍惜我。

是时候学习拒绝,
是时候学习停止,
是时候学习放下,
是时候学习忘记,
是时候学习重新来过。

这并不是我不懂得珍惜,
而是因为情况不容我珍惜。

我珍惜,
可没人珍惜我。

可能是我的性格,
可能是我的态度,
可能是我的举止,
可能是我的样貌,
并不值得珍惜吧。

既然别人不愿意挽留,
又何苦希望别人挽留。

我是谁?
凭什么要别人珍惜,挽留?
又何必对他死缠烂打呢?
苦了一生又为了什么?
深情,却只为无情苦,沦为痴情。
对方会知道吗?
答案,在您心中。

2013年3月10日 星期日

Oz the great and powerful





Nice Movie
of course the song is amazing too, almost home by Mariah Carey

2013年2月22日 星期五

成大事必備9種能力、9種手段、9種心態


一:沉穩
1)不要隨便顯露你的情緒。
2)不要逢人就訴說你的困難和遭遇。
3)在徵詢別人的意見之前,自己先思考,但不要先講。
4)不要一有機會就嘮叨你的不滿。
5)重要的決定儘量有別人商量,最好隔一天再發佈。
6)講話不要有任何的慌張,走路也是。
二:細心
1)對身邊發生的事情,常思考它們的因果關係。
2)對做不到位的執行問題,要發掘它們的根本癥結。
3)對習以為常的做事方法,要有改進或優化的建議。
4)做什麼事情都要養成有條不紊和井然有序的習慣。
5)經常去找幾個別人看不出來的毛病或弊端。
6)自己要隨時隨地對有所不足的地方補位。
三:膽識
1)不要常用缺乏自信的詞句
2)不要常常反悔,輕易推翻已經決定的事。
3)在眾人爭執不休時,不要沒有主見。
4)整體氛圍低落時,你要樂觀、陽光。
5)做任何事情都要用心,因為有人在看著你。
6)事情不順的時候,歇口氣,重新尋找突破口,就結束也要乾淨俐落。
四:大度
1)不要刻意把有可能是夥伴的人變成對手。
2)對別人的小過失、小錯誤不要斤斤計較。
3)在金錢上要大方,學習三施(財施、法施、無畏施)
4)不要有權力的傲慢和知識的偏見。
5)任何成果和成就都應和別人分享。
6)必須有人犧牲或奉獻的時候,自己走在前面。
五:誠信
1)做不到的事情不要說,說了就努力做到。
2)虛的口號或標語不要常掛嘴上。
3)針對客戶提出的“不誠信"問題,拿出改善的方法。
4)停止一切“不道德"的手段。
5)耍弄小聰明,要不得!
6)計算一下產品或服務的誠信代價,那就是品牌成本。
六:擔當
1)檢討任何過失的時候,先從自身或自己人開始反省。
2)事項結束後,先審查過錯,再列述功勞。
3)認錯從上級開始,表功從下級啟動
4)著手一個計畫,先將權責界定清楚,而且分配得當。
5)對“怕事"的人或組織要挑明瞭說。
6)因為勇於承擔責任所造成的損失,公司應該承擔


成大事的九種手段:
1、敢於決斷--克服猶豫不定的習性
很多人之所以一事無成,最大的毛病就是缺乏敢於決斷的手段,總是左顧右盼、思前想後,從而錯失成功的最佳時機。成大事者在看到事情的成功可能性到來時,敢於做出重大決斷,因此取得先機。

2、挑戰弱點--徹底改變自己的缺陷
人人都有弱點,不能成大事者總是固守自己的弱點,一生都不會發生重大轉變;能成大事者總是善於從自己的弱點上開刀,去把自己變成一個能力超強的人。一個連自己的缺陷都不能糾正的人,只能是失敗者!

3、突破困境--從失敗中撮成功的資本
人生總要面臨各種困境的挑戰,甚至可以說困境就是“鬼門關”。一般人會在困境面前渾身發抖,而成大事者則能把困境變為成功的有力跳板。

4、抓住機遇--善於選擇、善於創造
機遇就是人生最大的財富。有些人浪費機遇輕而易舉,所以一個個有巨大潛力的機遇都悄然溜跑,成大事都是絕對不允許溜走,並且能縱身撲向機遇。

5、發揮強項--做自己最擅長的事情
一個能力極弱的人肯定難以打開人生局面,他必定是人生舞臺上重量級選手的犧牲品;成大事者關於在自己要做的事情上,充分施展才智,一步一步地拓寬成功之路。

6、調整心態--切忌讓情緒傷害自己
心態消極的人,無論如何都挑不起生活和重擔,因為他們無法直面一個個人生挫折,成大事者則關於高速心態,即使在毫無希望時,也能看到一線成功的亮光。

7、立即行動--只說不做,徒勞無益
一次行動勝過百遍心想。有些人是“語言的巨人,行動的矮子”,所以看不到更為實際現實的事情在他身上發生;成大事者是每天都靠行動來落實自己的人生計畫的。

8、善於交往--巧妙利用人力資源
一個人不懂得交往,必然會推動人際關係的力量。成大事者的特點之一是:善於靠借力、借熱去營造成功的局勢,從而能把一件件難以辦成的事辦成,實現自己人生的規劃。

9、重新規劃--站到更高的起點上
人生是一個過程,成功也是一個過程。你如果滿足于小成功,就會推動大成功。成大事者懂得從小到大的艱辛過程,所以在實現了一個個小成功之後,能繼續拆開下一個人生的“密封袋”。