这两天的心情不是很好，这为什么这两天我选择了整身黑色的衣服。
也不是什么事情，就莫名其妙的想独处。
看到人就莫名其妙的不想说话。
就莫名其妙的搞寂寞。
或者是莫名其妙的搞孤独。
实在太奇怪了，我也不知为什么。
太莫名其妙了。
或许，我正在学习独处，因为不久的将来我将被逼独处，注定孤单。
或许，我正在学习沉默，因为不久的将来我将被逼沉默，无话可说。
我不知道，也不想知道不久的将来会怎样，因为最终已经让我无法预料，无法预料的东西虽然可怕，但我不敢想像所以干脆不去想。

Petals

I've often wondered if there's
Ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for undividedness
And sought stability

A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started failing in the wind
Like golden petals scattering

And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you

But I miss you dandelion
And even love you

I gravitated towards a patriarch
So young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life
With a maze of misery

A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity

And I miss you little sis and
Little brother
And I hope you realize
I'll always love you
(Always love you)
And although you're struggling
You will recover
(You're gonna make it, baby)
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother

So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep
(Sleep)
(Sleep)
(Sleep)

And I missed a lot of life
But I'll recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you

I really loved you
(I guess I loved you)
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity

And I found the strength to break away
(Do do do do do)
(Do do do do do do do do)
Fly

Performed by Mariah Carey 

The things happen in the last time is not all I want...
Is this so call life?
I want you all coming back to me..
but I know this is impossible...
I know, things always happen in unexpected,
how will I expected to happen?
my heart are broke, what was happening was already non of my business.
I pray, I tries to pray for my expectation will arise..
can I follow you forever, cause I love you so much..