One more weeks to go, this semester will end, than more 5 or 6 days left will facing my final exam, how fast the time are running that I cant realize.

Not much things happen recently, but my heart feel want to die already.

My heart being broken since I attending the interview exercise which prepare by one of my subject called employability and entreprenuership. The comments by my lecturer(Tan Seng Teck) states to me that I'm very bad because of no prepared enough and while answering the question, my voice is too soft compare to my another classmate, it can make the interviewer feels that I am no confidence person, and the question ask by the interviewer, I almost don't know how to answer because of I don't understand the question that the interviewer asking. I know I have many weakness, it make me feel that my future are being darkness and hopeless.Through this case happen implied that I must following the arrangement which prepare by my family without choices.

But I don't want, I want to step out my family's shadow.

I use to be independent, I don't want relying anyone, I just want to do what I like to do.

I know and I admit this is my weakness because I'm too choosy, one of the factors that fresh graduates were unemployed because of too choosy for the job, but it was overdue my patience, they stressed me too much until I want to strike out by myself. But through the interview, I am become surrender, how could I improve? Recently many people said that certificate is not the pass scroll fo apply job, but actually certificate are very important nowadays, because I feel that certificate are become an evidence while you are writing you resume therefore certificate are very important.

Recently, I feel that I am become alone in every situation, no one gonna stand by my side, what should I do? How do I do now? I am very hunger the solution now...

Because I just don't want to be alone....