Miss You Most (at Christmas Time)-Mariah Carey

I feel so alone at Christmas time, such feeling are driving me crazy,
someone has make me  got such feeling, this song are totally describe
what I feel now, everybody are celebrating their Christmas, except for me
because I miss you most at Christmas time.....

The fire is burning
The room's all aglow
Outside the December wind blows
Away in the distance
The carolers sing in the snow
Everybody's laughing
The world is celebrating
And everyone's so happy
Except for me tonight
Because...

I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you
Most at Christmas time

I gaze out the window
This cold winters' night
At all of the twinkling lights
Alone in the darkness
Remembering when you were mine
Everybody's smiling
The whole world is rejoicing
And everyone's embracing
Except for you and I
Baby...

I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you
Most at Christmas time 

In the springtime
Those memories start to fade
With the April rain
Through the summer days
Till Autumn's leaves are gone
I get by without you
Till the snow begins to fall
And then...

I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you
Most at Christmas time

今天心血来潮，自己来了Old Town享受独处的感觉，没什么，就喜欢一个人。特地坐在吸烟区，目的是可以看看外面的风景，在加上今天的风很凉，唯一美中不足的是，竟然上不到网 页。另外一个目的就是自学，在没有任何认识的人的环境下，我自学就没有那么大压力。顺便也可以让我一个人静静的看下照片回忆一下，这感觉还蛮享受的。

最近还发生蛮多事情的，人事几翻新，只是死党又少几人了。人啊，总是奇怪得太过分了，就以我本身来说，别人的少少动作却能让我胡思乱足足几天,我所谓的少少动作是，可能是别人的一个眼神或别人一句话什么的，只因或说怪我实在太在乎那几个人了，他所做的每一个动作，或所说的没一句话，我几乎都对号入座了。做人还是洒脱一点好，但洒脱哪有那么容易说做就做到的，除非你是圣人。

最近不知怎么的，我感觉到朋友好像越来越少了，上个学期的死党好像都一个个离我而去，曾经一起疯狂的，现在都变成互相防备,互相猜测了，没有以前那样志同道合的感觉，到底怎么了，谁也不知，其实根本没有发生什么事情，可能就好像我在上面所说的那样，彼此都对号入座了。

唉，老生常谈，人生有几多个十年，知己难找。对我来说现在有遇上了两个，但一个已是不常见面，而另一个也渐渐的越来越难见面了。

有时不是我不要珍惜，而是无法挽留，人生尽是那么的无奈。

现在的我又回到之前的我，孤单一人，没人明白我，更没有人想明白我，寂寞时常在不经意间在夜阑人静的时候侵蚀我的梦境，让我看到一些回忆，曾经很开心而现在又已经不会发生的时刻，教人感到更加寂寞，让我又在次的害怕睡觉，因为实在太痛苦了。

其实我可以往好的方面思考，我有更多的时间了，我可以享受独处，我可以静静的做自己想做的事情，我有更多的时间休息，我可以买一些书籍来提升自己。虽然，我会更寂寞，我会更孤单，我会更向往，我会更珍惜，我会更害怕，少了很多欢笑，少了很多快乐，少了很多关心，多了很多回忆，多了很多的胡思乱想。。。

回到现实吧，不经意间已经晚上7点了，今天天气很好，没有下雨。那两个讨厌的女生，一直在我隔壁座抽烟，烟味实在难顶。刚来的时候她们是在学习的，然后现在就在那里谈天，阻碍了静静独处的乐趣了。看看马路，没有什么塞车，可我的心还想坐在这，因为那个风还很大，很舒服。

那么快的一个学期结束，另一个学期紧接着来了，就是两天后了。
这个新的学期是我一直期待的，期待的是可以见回上学期的朋友，
同时也逃离了家庭工作的约束。
这个学期对我来说是一个希望，很期待的希望着。
然而一个朋友突然说要转校，突然间将我的希望打碎了。
这个朋友对我来说很重要，几乎可以说是我的强心针，
有种没有了他我不能活的感觉，虽说即使没有了谁都能活。
我知道我很矛盾，但矛盾就是我的天性，
因为同时的，我也很害怕这个学期的到来。
我怕自己的成绩，我怕学费太贵，同时也怕很少机会接触到上学期的朋友。
对！我就是在逃避事情，我不能接受我不想让其发生的事情。
我知道我又掉入那种欲望的黑洞，它正在侵蚀着我的生活与思想！！
孤独与寂寞感天天都准时地在我要闭上眼睛的那一刻报到，
它们让我心跳加速，让我的脑袋充满着我不想看到的东西，
让我得不到平静，那种心灵的平静，而且日夜增加，一发不可收拾！
是我得了忧郁症吗？
还是一直压欲着的忧郁症又回来了？
我应该已经对这种感觉麻痹的，
可为什么现在又回到当初的感觉？
我不要！
我不要在回到这种欲望游戏！
我正在被自己的思想侵袭着！
是亲情，是友情。
这两个东西一直在我脑袋打转！
对友情，是思念。
对亲情，是恨！！
一向自以为很独立的我，其实很希望有一个死党，
或一个知心朋友，
但成为这类型的朋友都一一离我而去了。
留下的只有回忆与思念。
这个家对我来说只是一个睡觉的地方，
已经没有感情可言，因为曾经有过。
这些事情对我来说已经经历过很多次了，
可每一次来袭的时候，为什么都那么痛呢？

Mariah Carey Underneath The Star

One summer night
We ran away for a while
Laughing, we hurried beneath the sky
To an obscure place to hide
That no one could find

And we drifted to another state of mind
And imagined I was yours and you were mine
As we lay upon the grass there in the dark
Underneath the stars
Young love
Underneath the stars

Weak in the knees
Wrapped in the warm gentle breeze
So shy
A bundle of butterflies
Flushed with the heat of desire
On a natural high

As we drifted to another place in time
And the feeling was so heady and sublime
As I lost my heart to you there in the dark
Underneath the stars
Young love

Beautiful and bittersweetly
You were fading into me
And I was gently fading into you
But the time went sailing by
Reluctantly we said good-bye
And left our secret place so far behind
And I lay in bed all night and I was
Drifting drifting drifting drifting

And I was yours
And you were my own
My own baby
As we lay
As we...
Lay underneath the stars

Through The Rain

When you are caught in the rain

With nowhere to run

I believe that i can make it through the rain, no matter
what happen in my life

When you’re distraught

And in pain, without anyone and you keep crying out

to be saved, but nobody comes
and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
you can get there alone
it's okay
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down

Don’t you dare give in

You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you’ll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid

I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows
As shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face

And should they tell you

You’ll never pull through

Don’t hesitate
Stand tall and say I

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again

On my own and I know

That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day

And I'll make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes, you can
You’re gonna make it through the rain.

My dreams are achived~~yeah~~~~~!!!

I can't imagine
I collect all the Mariah Carey albums Ohhh my Goshhhhhhh~~!!!!
so happy hahahaha

Time are very fast, faster as we can't imagine, I believe that there has a lord lead me the way, I found out that I already lost my way.
Sometime love can solve many problem, including the friendship, but I found out that i don't know how to solve my problem.
My life should be very smoothly, but I can't make it happen.
What happen in my deeply heart?
What happen in my little mind?
Looking at the mirror, that's me, that's still me!!!
But my heart and my mind are not mine, I just lost my spirit!!
I love my family, from now I try to love my family.
but I can't, I hate it, I try to love them, I force myself to love them, but I feel like I deceiving to myself, my family don't understand me, this is the result for I love them so much, they even don't care about what I'm thinking.
I want to do whatever I like, I want freedom, I love my life in collage, even though it is very busy life, because my classmate are very kindness and understanding, they are very willing to help, that is what I want in my life.
I don't want full of controlling in my life, I hate to do when I forcing by someone to do the job or work I hate about.
Why they just thinks university life are very relaxing?
Why they think I have a responsibilities to do the family business?
Why when i feel stressful and tell me that they will divorce soon even though this is impossible?
Parents should be don't let their children worries about their relationship, they don't know how hurt to hear it, they just think about themself, they don't even care about their children, I hate them very much.
What should I suppose to do now?
Am I have to let them go ahead?
Or let myself go ahead?
I can't imagine my future, I don't know how to face them when I meet them, I feel very uncomfortable, I'm afraid when they try to tell me or force me to do something that there are very hurt to me. They even don't believe me, what person I am they supposed to be very understanding.
What does that mean I change a lot when i starting my university life?
Am I look like a bad guy when I start my collage life?
Am I look very showing off when I start my collage life?
I haven't sleep many nights because of assignment, why they are thinking I just have fun?
You will have fun when you cannot sleep whole day because of rushing assignment?
Saturday and Sunday supposed to be my rest day, why I must doing that family job in my rest day?
Are they lack of workers?
I don't think so.
They think I am free this two day?
They think my course work are easy for me to handle?
They think I'm smart enough to exam?
This is what they thinking about.
The most funny things I ever heard about is School's study things are useless in real world.
I realize that real world is experience needed, but study in school are prepare for learning to gain experience for real world, therefore study in school are useless?
And why we need a school?
School is building for what?
Decoration of a city?
What a joke~~~!!!!!!
At this time I miss my little Jacky very badly,
my beloved dog Jacky, where are you now, I miss you so much, I know that day you are very hard, and I know this is all my fault, we bring you into our life, but we didn't care enough to take care you, untill you very ill, we don't know how to help you. When you gone, I cry many nights, Because I love you the most, but I can't help when you get ill, so that I let you go, untill you are rest in peace. I still can't accept that you are gone, that is all my fault, but I don't know what should I do.
Mariah Carey's song are here with me...
spread your wings and prepare to fly...
Butterfly..........

For Me For You For Everyone

二十岁，一个尴尬的年龄




一个一无所有却自命清高的年龄。


当我们吃父母的、喝父母的、花父母的血汗时，却还在为自己所谓的面子大摆宴席、招朋待友，为哥们的生日礼物不惜重金，为取悦男（女）朋友挖空心思的为此掏空腰包，想想，都花了二十年了，有自己赚的钱吗？


二十岁，你有什么？


青春？终究会成为回忆。


知识？太浅薄了。


美貌？换来的更多的是虚伪的感情与利益。


时间？这样想的人差不多都在挥霍时间。


爱情？那是一辈子的事，现在拥有的真实吗。


除了父母给的，还有什么值得我们去骄傲、炫耀？


在别人面前我们什么都不是，这很现实。


不要以为自己有多么了不起，在社会中，你连棵草都不是。


清高，抵得上一份工作吗？能让你吃好、喝好、住好吗？


不要以为端盘子洗碗、站超市、打扫卫生天生就不是你干的事，不要以为你天生就是拯救世界的料儿，日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。


二十岁了，该现实点了，放下清高的架子，折断幻想的翅膀，才会走的更精彩


二十岁，一个充满理想却过于富于幻想的年龄。


成功是经历了比别人更多的努力、付出、毅力、痛苦与艰辛后得到的，不是能幻想出来的。


即使天上有掉陷饼的事也不会砸到整天幻想的人


二十岁，一个涉世不深却自谓看透一切的年龄。


我们常常讽刺社会的肮脏、丑陋、腐败，自以为很纯洁，就浅薄的说出活在这样的世界很无奈的话。


热爱生命，不要只是处在大学的象塔中才说出这样的话，在当我们经历了社会的各种不纯洁时也要能说出这样的话。


二十岁，在大学中你看到的连社会中的一个角都抵不上。要想真正的看透人生，等你闭眼的那一刻才是看透了，好好活着才有看破红尘的一天。


二十岁，一个美好却又短暂的年龄。


这个时期是你精力最充沛、心灵最美好的季节，不要把它浪费在赚人眼泪的偶像剧中，你永远不会成为其中的女主角，不要梦想着一见钟情的遇到你的白马王子，这样的可能性比地球明天就灭亡的可能性还小。


有时间背起行囊出去走走吧，二十岁你看到的一切绝对和你以后在公司筹划的旅游中看到的不一样，看看外面的世界，别只是装到相册中，要装进心里。


多把眼球从电脑上挪开点，外面的世界更精彩，亲眼看到和在网上浏览是两码事。


“宅人”的生活会让人丧失生存的价值，趁现在多出去看看，好给以后老了走不动了留下回忆的东西呀。


二十岁，一个简单却又复杂的年龄。


不要过多的纠缠于过去的事，记住，真正的忘记不需要刻意。


无论是多么难以忘记的感情，不属于你了就不要使劲去强掰回来，强扭的瓜不甜，真理。


二十岁，不一定活的精彩，但千万要活的有自尊。尊严不值得为单纯的感情买单！


到了二十岁，就要找到除了爱情能使你双脚坚强的站立在这个大地上的东西！


二十岁，一个长大却没成熟的年龄。


这个时间，除了父母，没人认为你还只是一个孩子，没人会迁就你的错误，学会承担一切，你会发现那比一味的逃避强的多！


二十岁，需要用心去成长！






by特木薯

Last Day of Year 2010

New Year should be very happy
But somenthing happen that i can not accept
My beloved Granduncle passed away
Hope his family can restrain their grief
here is a memorial song
one sweet day to my granduncle
hoping he Rest In Pease.

One Sweet Day

Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.

Now it's too late to hold you. '

Cause you've flown away, so far away.

Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile.

Feelin' and knowing you hear me.

It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Darling, I never showed you.

Assumed you'd always be there.

I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven.

Like so many friends we've lost along the way.

And I know eventually we'll be together.

One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day.

Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say