我希望我从未认识过你，
至少/或许现在的我会过得更加轻松，
少了想念你的烦恼。

22nd October 2014, a very special day for me, a lamb from Malaysia

Today is a very special day for me, why?

Because today is a day of The Elusive Chanteuse Show by Mariah Carey!!

MARIAH CAREY comes to Malaysia!! How lucky then I am still alive~!!

Yes, I go alone, and this is the very first time that I attend a concert.

And also, this is one of my most memorable day in my life~!!

I reach KL at 5:30 pm, to collect my ticket from Kah Mun (as I present Kah Mun help me to collect ticket on my behalf, and he only today free to give me ticket =.=”). I start my journey from 3:30pm, I used almost 2 hours to reach there, no because of jam, this is because of that stupid GPS always lead me the wrong way and I totally don’t know where is Stadium Merdeka, thankfully got Kah Mun.

Yes, I reached there at 5:30pm, that parking fee is RM20.00, usually the parking fee, as according to Kah Mun, is RM3.00 per car, this time…er…WTF…

However I included it as a cost of ticket fee (total ticket fee is RM303.00, sorry I am poor), as this is worth it for Mariah Carey (in other ways, I am crying)

Okay, I parked my car at 6:00pm, still got 2 hours to wait as the show start at 8:00pm according to official, I just wait, but I am too exciting, also very nervous as this is very first for me to attend a concert, I don’t know what happen next, the feeling so complicated while I waiting the show.

But, very unlucky, rain god likes to attend the Mariah Carey concert as well, it very punctual as the rain start at 7:30pm. I feel like… praying hard during that 30 minutes, it is very difficult to get through this 30 minutes, well rain god do very love Mariah Carey as at the conclusion, the rain god sit there almost 4 hours, and yeah, its worth as suit Mariah Carey’s song, we can make it, through the rain.

I wait at the car until 8.00pm and I try to go in and wow during the time, there are many people in the queue, I was like how long can I go in the seat and enjoy the show?

Almost half an hour’s goes, I only able to sit at there, but that time Mariah Carey still haven’t come out yet. But the rain become bigger and bigger, I am wearing raincoat that time, but the raincoat only cost me RM5, so this is expected that didn’t cover my body much.

We waited till 9:15pm, Mariah Carey only start her show, BUT it was CRAZY~!!!

I am CRYING~!!!! Really~~!!!

She is SO AMAZING that night, I was like OH MY GOD, I CAN SEE HER IN PERSON (even though this very far from my view) AND LISTEN HER VOICE SINCE I ONLY LISTED IN RADIO ON THE PAST DAY~!!

I am crying during that time, I can’t actually explain why am I crying that time, but I do really crying during that time, when I saw her come out and start the show with Fantasy, when her singing Hero, We Belong Together, she singing whistle register and so on, I am crying. I do really love her and appreciate that she come to Malaysia and perform for us, actually she is not necessary to open concert for us.

Furthermore, I just realized that I been became her fan about 9 years since her classic, We Belong Together was release in 2005, until now year 2014.   Her voice, her music, her lyrics had been rooted in my heart, I think this is reason that I am crying, those things help me go through every part of my life, Can’t take that away, Hero, Make it Happen, Through the rain and so much more, her music does help me go through all the hard part of my life, this is so amazing.

The whole performance is 2 hours and 30 minute; this is most enjoyable moment in my life, I really thankful to Mariah Carey, for her music, her performance and so much more.

Thank you.

现在已经是凌晨两点钟，一股让人无法呼吸的氛围环绕在我的房间，那一股无法抵抗的寂寞感又回来了，它让我打开这一个无人会看，无人会在乎的网志任由情绪发泄。
我不知道为什么会这样，我突然有一股冲动想把面子书的所有朋友都删掉，我觉得这个平台根本就是把人与人之间的距离越拉越远。
我觉得，现在的我，非常孤单。
距离上一次的网志，也过了大概两个月的时间，毕业典礼过了，什么都过了。我大学生活真的真的就这样结束了。
说真的，要和以前的大学朋友联络，真的是非常的困难，大家都各散东西了，各有各的发展，都忙自己的，哪有时间再像以前那样常出来嬉哈的。
他们，或者我，是彼此之间的过客，时间到了，或到站了，就该下车了。这非常残酷，但却是事实，无法避免。
我曾经以为，但当时对我来说，我遇到了一个很好的朋友，至少我对他是真心的。
但现在呢？
蹈火赴汤，换来的就是各散东西。
哈哈，是我执著吗？还是我笨？
他会在乎我吗？
他会想念我吗？
还是压根儿把我完全忘了？
我不知道，我的思维很乱，这就是我失眠的原因。
我真的真的很想念他...
我尝试抗拒，但还是被臣服了。
现在工作，我觉得我根本没有朋友，我交不到心，我没有勇气把心交出来。
我怕，我会在次陷入这种感觉，我害怕这种感觉，我讨厌这种感觉。
我也很累去承担这种感觉，我承受不起，会陷入疯狂。
对不起，我无情是因为我怕被认为是痴情。

Mariah Carey - Cry (Album: Me, I am Mariah... The Elusive Chanteuse)

Maybe I didn’t leave much between us that day
And maybe I shouldn’t have told you I loved you
Played the game, and now I understand
Wish I could have you back
And kiss you soft and feel your hands on me

Til we both break down
Til we both break down
Til we both break down and cry

And maybe I didn’t give you your space back then
And maybe I should have just held out a little bit longer
But I was seduced by you, and I didn't know enough
Truly too enchanted to disregard the words you said to make me yours
I need to hold you until we break…

Til we both break down
Til we both break down (I should have known that you were trying to love me)
Til we both break down and cry

My love, imprudently I left every cell in me
So naked, somewhere at the core of you
Bless our souls

Til we both break down (I just need you to)
Til we both break down (Might as well tell the truth about the matter)
Til we both break down (Yes, I guess it's selfish of me to just expect that I'm entitled to have you)
Til we both break down (But tonight all I wanna do is just hold you til we break)
We both break down and cry

Just bought >.<
exciting now hahah~!!!

NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING HAPPEN RECENTLY~~!!

不知不觉现在已经5月了，距离上一次也有整整4个月了，哈哈感叹时间可过的真快。
最后一次的考试成绩出炉了，我终于可以总结我在大学三年来的成绩了，如下：

Period	Courses	Marks	Grade
Year 3	Strategic Cost Management	70	B1
	International Accounting	62	B3
	Practice of Auditing	58	C1
	Corporate Reporting	57	C1
	Malaysian Taxation	64	B2
	Management Decision Making	62	B3
	Strategic Management Accounting	57	C1
	Corporate Governance	56	C1
Year 2	Financial Statements 2	72	A3
	Cost and Activity Management  (Resit)	70	B1
	Performance Management	66	B2
	Financial Statements 1 (Resit)	55	C2
	Management and Marketing	52	C1
	Principles of Corporate Finance 1	60	C1
	Employability and Entrepreneurship	57	C1
	Financial Statements 1 (Failed)	29	F1
	Principles of Corporate Finance 2	49	D1
	Cost and Activity Management (Failed)	43	D3
	Introduction to Business Law	47	D2
Year 1	Introduction to Quantitative Methods	54	C3
	Quantitative Methods for Business	50	C3
	Foundations of Management Accounting	42	D3
	Foundations of Financial Accounting	52	C2
	Introduction to Microeconomics	42	D3
	Economic Environments of Business (Resit)	40	E3.
	English for Business Study 2	50	C3
	Skills for Accountants	52	C2
	Malaysian Studies	45	C
	Bahasa Kebangsaan A	45	C
	Economic Environments of Business (Failed)	39	F1
	English for Business Study 1	48	D1
	Moral Study	40	D

总的来说，我是SECOND UPPER CLASS HONORS

哈哈，我的呕心沥血出来的成绩，尤其是最后一年特别努力，因为那一年才是决定我的classification, 然而从这个表可以知道，我算是一年一年的在进步，哈哈一开始的不是D就是C，到最后的不是C就是B，只有一个A，对我来说已经尽最大的努力了。

但是，工作了大概4个月，渐渐的发现，成绩好不好这回事好像对我们的工作没有什么关系，它只是一个证明，或通行证，或形象来让我们找到一个很好的工作，或许我需要多一点时间来琢磨它们之间的关系吧。

最近的我怎么样？

哈哈，一个人上班，一个人下班，只是偶尔（偶尔中的偶尔）约朋友出来吃饭，唱歌，看电影。

然后就没有然后了，都在家。

是有特别挂念一些人，但都过去了，现在我算是踏入人生的另一个阶层--上班族哈哈哈哈

但其实我有点不想过这样的生活 T.T

最近为有这样

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